I'm [Not] Alright

Pap-Pap went home on Monday afternoon. He's with Dad and I'm sure he's ecstatic right now. It's been interesting dealing with a loss that I've been emotionally prepared for. Dad's death was sudden and Grandpa's was long and drawn out. Heart attack. Cancer. Not only that but it goes against the order of life. Viewing/funeral is on Thursday/Friday. I don't want to do it.

"I'm not alright/I'm broken inside/Broken inside/And all I go through/it leads me to you/Leads me to you/Burn away the pride/Bring me to my weakness/Until everything I hide behind is gone/And when I'm open wide/with nothing left to cling to/Only you are there to lead me on/And I move/And I move/And I move/Closer to you/Honestly, I'm not that strong/I'm not alright/that's why I need you"[Sanctus Real]

My soul, wait in silence for God only, for my hope is from Him. He only is my rock and my salvation. My stronghold; I shall not be shaken. Trust in Him at all times...Pour out your heart before him. [PS62:5.6.8]

I've been spending most of my time reading books for next semester. Really have enjoyed the cults book. Now all I need is a create your own cult kit.

I've also hung with Mel too, and lounged at home. It's been good to relax.

Target: Made some returns and went shopping too. Acquired some cool stuff. Plaid cap. Plaid is dope. Sweet LS t-shirts. External hard drive (on sale).

Recently this melody has been going through my head, and I've hit it out on guitar and piano. "Your mercies are new every morning. Your faithfulness reaches to the skies. Your lovingkindness is better than life. And your love is mine. I will praise you, for you are my God. I will praise you God above all gods."

Anyway. All for now.

-Sammy

Boxing Day

Sam had an amazing Christmas. It was different, but amazing.

Sam loves punctation too...!-:?;/,"!*It's his new thing.

Sam spent Christmas eve with his family and opened gifts and ate Christmas dinner with said family. Then they went to the candlelight Christmas eve service at church. Which Keith and Sam quite agree on being perhaps the best church service in the year because it includes fire! December 25th was spent at Pop & Grandmas with Mom's family eating much food and enjoying the gift-giving thing again. Sam also watched the Grinch in the evening which is his favorite movie in case you didn't know. If you do not know this by now, learn this. It is important that you know this. It will help you better understand Sam. Also, Sam spent time with someone he loves. Sam enjoyed.

Isn't it great that because of the ultimate gift we get to give/receive gifts today?

Oh, and Sam has no problem with referring to himself in the 3rd person. At least...no, he has no problem with this at all.

Now That I Have Some Perspective

I've learned a lesson from college. Life is as slow as you make it.

Last night I went to a Christmas party, then came home and watched It's A Wonderful Life.

Enjoyed sleeping today - and what I call lounging. Wrapped some Christmas presents - and I'm gonna do some reading.

I love punctuation...


-Sammy

7 Days

I'm home. Blissful it is.

Bad news: I was sick.
Good news: I was sick.

Mel and I pulled an EEP today and left. I've been sick for the past three days, including my birthday on monday. Let me assure you of the misery I experienced. I am grateful for the ability to simply eat, sit down, or sleep.

So here am I, happy to be home, and getting better. Can I just forget the last week I've had?

"Now listen, even if we're horribly mangled, there'll be no sad faces on Christmas."

-Sam

December

Halfway through the stretch of finals, and it's...

It's gonna rain.

Angst

Pet peeve: The phrase, "Have fun with your homework." As if I actually enjoy disciplining myself to do homework!?! I mean, really now, who started this phrase, and where'd we pick it up? But that really annoys me: Tell me to work hard or do my best, but don't give me an imperative command about having fun, (even in jest!)


Punched a kid in the mouth tonight (accidentally). I felt so bad. I was just havin fun and messin around with Marcus. *grimaces* Yea.


Put my tree up last night. What saddens me is the fact that I put it up this late due to how busy I have been. Also, I talked with JoHo t'night about how sad we are about no open dorms for Christmas, and no Christmas-time open staff houses. We want the good food and caroling around Christmas time! In spite, I decorated my tree with CD's and DVD's. It's an interesting touch, but it's cool - I like it.


And if that interests you...

What?!?!?

Here I am, awake from midnight on, studying until the light of dawn.


It's finals week.


What am I thinking?

Falling Frozen Ice Crystals

Okay, now really...does it have to snow? Just because it is December and we are starting into the winter months, does not mean that it has to get all "Christmasy" and snow on us! I mean really, I don't mean to be a Scrooge, or a Grinch (love that movie), but whoever said that the snow makes everything all white and pretty, in spite of the deadness, was a hopeless and pathetically blind optimistic! Need I say more? I need. So I was driving around tonight and came to a stop sign, applied the brakes, and the back of my car slid to the right about six feet! Really! Tell me how wonderful snow is now! And then, there's the salt and the slush....ech. And then some child, of whom I have my suspicions as to their identity, made a disgustingly cute snow angel on the main north lawn of main campus. Can we not just leave the snow be? Oh no! We must tramp in it and ruin its "beauty". I'd say the only redeemable quality of snow is how pretty the crystals look up close. Other than that...ugh.

So with all this snow that we got...

Method #5: Single Lark's Head
Length: Medium to long
Difficulty: 2-3
This style is very similar to Method #1, only with a little twist. Fold scarf in half. Place your hand in the loop on the top end of the scarf, and then lay the scarf around your neck. Your right hand should still be in the loop and your left hand holding the two ends of the other end of the scarf. With your right hand grab only one of the two ends of the scarf and pull it through the loop you are holding in your right hand. Adjust for snugness.

-Sam

The End

"I talked to your mother. She called to gloat." (Sorry, random things pop in my head)

Back to Cinci now. I went hunting on Monday and shot a button buck.


What I find ironic is the things that I preach on, God speaks to me about, especially in specific areas of my life. I have been helped. Of course after intense study, preparation, and immersion in the passages I should not be surprised. His word is alive.

How can you be happy, apathetic, desirous, stressed, and hopeful all at the same time? It's just about that time in the semester...

Hmm

Method #4: The Single Flipover
Length: Medium to Long
Difficulty: 1
This one's easy: Put the scarf around your neck and flip one end over. Style it!

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